From the start of my pregnancy to the end of my pregnancy, I was terrified of giving birth. Not knowing what to expect made me even more nervous. Especially after seeing all the birth stories online and everyone had different stories and experiences to share; there were easy ones and there were incredibly tough ones. It was nerve-wracking.
I remember trying to calm myself down by always thinking that this is a natural thing, cows give birth, cats give birth, humans give birth. It's a normal natural process, and over thousands of years so many women had done this before.
When I felt my contractions a couple of hours before giving birth, the sensation was different from what I had imagined. The pain got me into all sorts of positions. As my labour progresses, the cramps started coming in every minute, it would start off slowly, build to the highest peak, and then ease up again.
The two things that stayed close to me was thinking that 'God will never burden a soul more than it can bear', and that 'pain is always temporary'. I kept repeating them in my head over and over again.
The minute break before each contraction, with absolutely no pain, was a welcome relief until the fifty to sixty second was up again. I saw my contractions slowly spiking up on the computer monitor and remembered thinking "Oh man, it's coming again" and it continued for a few hours. I didn't ask for an epidural so I felt every bit of the pain until I was sent for an emergency c-section.
Although the sensations were incredibly intense, I was bringing a life into the world. The experience of holding my baby for the first time still brings tears to my eyes. I have never felt so much joy in my life.